Just Do It

I'm sitting in my studio listening to the rain falling outside.  It sounds like a relaxation tape with nice, nonthreatening thunder and the tapping of drops on the metal roof.  I'm waiting for a massage client who I realize now isn't coming.  It was a gift certificate so, so be it.  I'm already paid and this way I get to listen to the rain instead of work.  And behind all of that, Pachelbel on the CD player.  Not a bad way to earn thirty bucks.  Did I mention I'm also a massage therapist? 

When I still thought my client was coming, I busied myself searching for a lavender cheesecake recipe.  I printed out a couple of them and have one selected for a go tonight, if I can get hubs to go to the store for cream cheese and graham crackers, later.  I bought a gallon bag of culinary lavender earlier this week when we went out of town for a couple of days. 

 I've also got a lavender shortcake recipe I desperately want to try.  I may have to do that tonight, too.

I worked a couple hours out in the barn on my log cabin dollhouse, this morning. 

I've wanted to make one of those for years and years.  Finally, a couple of weeks ago, I just went out and started cutting it out.  Today I attached some of the log facade to the walls. 

It's going to be gorgeous.  And flawed.  It's my first attempt at a dollhouse and I'm making mistakes but I refuse to subscribe to perfectionism.  I won't be stifled by my own expectations.  Action is the key, at this point.  Getting out there and doing something I love, is my goal.

What kind of a goal is that, you probably wonder.  You probably think it's easy to do things you love, don't you?  But it's not.  Most of the time I think about doing things I love or write about them or talk about them.  I'm better at buying books about the things I love (that I never read).  And sometimes I buy the materials I need to do them but I rarely manage to ever get around to the actual doing of those ever important things I love to do.   And it was only in taking an ecourse from Tama Kieves titled, "Creating the Work You Love" that I ever got out there and started doing anything at all.

I'm proud of myself for finishing that course, by the way.  It's not unlike me to sign up for something like that and then never do it.  Just print out the materials, telling myself I'll do it later and then never doing it.  Like $1200 worth of online herbalist, energy work and nutritional courses I haven't completed.  That was in 2007.  It would seem that my challenge isn't in getting the necessary materials to do things I'm interested in but in just getting off my ass and doing them.  Sometimes I feel like I'm in one of those fair rides that go in circles and you never get off and you never get anywhere, either.  But not this time.  This time I finished the course.  This is the 12th week and I'm doing it.  All of it. And I think I've found the work I was meant to do, by the way.  Just so you know.